Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Celebrating Storm of Insanity

Hello sedative..
You'll be my best friend again for the time I cannot decide.

Because...


Thursday, April 14, 2016

I'm Wired

I'm tired. 
So tired. 
But I'm wired.

Plan to sleep early.
Went to bed early.
But I'm wired.

Hungry.
Cannot sleep.
Eat.
But still wired.


Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Go away!

Please go away. Far far away. I'm sick of you. Just let me alone now. Better be alone than having a bad company.

I'm so tired of you. 

I just wants to focus to myself. Loving me like no oner ever did to myself. Loving me as much as the love i give to other people.


Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Aku Lelah

Perasaanku campur aduk. Marah, kesal, murka, sedih, malu, merasa dikhianati, merasa bersalah, merasa seperti anak nakal yang tidak turut pada aturan, lelah, muak, dan bahkan jijik. Entah kepada siapa. Mungkin kepada diriku sendiri.

Aku pun lelah dengan ketidakstabilan emosiku. Yang mudah tersulut percikan api. Histeris tanpa melihat di mana tempatku berada. Histeris hanya karena seseorang memaksa dirinya ingin menemuiku dan menyentuhku dengan tangan kotornya. Aku muak dengan segala dusta dan omong kosongnya.